Hang on 'Till Tomorrow

You feel like everything you were doing was perfectly aligned, divinely guided and all the pieces were falling into place so quickly. You were so excited and grateful and just in awe of the way the universe can make things happen. You were told that if we just think positive, follow our joy and stay connected to your power within that miracles can happen. You thought this was it. This was how it was going to happen. Until it didn’t….

Your mind starts racing to try to come up with an answer to all the questions it always asks. What caused this change in plans? Why do I seem to always get so far and then it doesn’t work out? Why does life have to be so darn hard? Why do I seem to get up over and over only to be knocked down one more time? What do I do now?

You throw up the existential question to the heavens. Why? Crickets. There is not always an adequate answer that explains the seeming chaos and confusion that come with the challenges of life. There is compassion, love, support, and understanding. It’s all that is needed. Yet right now for you it doesn’t feel like enough… not right now. 

Let’s face it, your human self might not be so happy with the fact that there is no complete answer. You might not feel how the universe understands, loves you and supports you at this moment. You just can’t because suddenly everything has changed again. In this moment, you feel you are left with the rubble and having to pick up the pieces of your broken heart again. You are so angry and upset and tired of what feels like a really stupid game. You might just want to give up. You want to scream. You are so hurt, heartbroken, angry and so bent out of shape that your physical body hurts. There is a headache, a backache, some strange pain in that shoulder. What is this? Why, why, why?

Yet the world keeps turning. In the whole scheme of life this small incident is such a little thing. There are appointments, there are obligations and there is not much time today to lean into this hurt. You might take a few minutes in private and allow a few tears but must cut that short. That little release will have to do for now. You take some medication for the awful migraine that is pounding in your brain. Down deep somewhere you pull the strength to carry out the plans for the day and you do your best to smile and do what you planned to do. You might love what you do. Yet today it is much harder. Today it doesn’t flow like it should. Today sucks.

In between appointments you reach out for support from those you know will be able to give you just a little advice to help you through the day. They send their encouragement and it really helps. You debrief with a good friend who can witness your pain. You journal at night and then you go to sleep knowing tomorrow is another day. You have been down this road before. You know the drill very well. Take the time to sit in silence. Feel into the emotion. Let it flood you. Take a break. Connect with others. Do some reading, some writing, and wait. Wait very quietly. Listen. Be patient. Have faith. Have compassion.

You have every right to be upset, mad and heartbroken. You have every right to be jealous. You have every right to be frustrated and tired and absolutely devastated. Why? Because this little incident that might seem really insignificant to others or your higher, more insightful self, wants to be acknowledged. It represents every single time things didn’t work out like they should. Every time plans got changed and dreams got shattered and life as you knew it was completely broken. It reminds you of when your whole world fell apart and you struggled to breathe. You struggled to get out of bed. You struggled to live. You struggled so much.

You know it’s okay to be this way right now. You take the time to allow it all because this is how it releases and heals. You face another day and you know that one day you will look back at this with more understanding, more clarity and more peace. Hell, you might even laugh! You know that only you can go within and find the message, the strength, the courage that will lead you back to joy again. Happiness will come around and you will remember how painful and hard this really was and at the same time you will be able to see some meaning in it all. You will rejoice and be grateful again. You will breathe and laugh and love again.

This is part of the journey of life and it is not for the faint of heart. It is hard. It can be painful and it can seem relentless. We are not meant to do it alone. We are meant to do it together. We need others to witness our pain, to hold us when we can’t stand and to validate us as we express all we are feelings no matter how irrational they might seem on the surface. There is always a good reason for what we are feeling. Our feelings are valid!

And… one more day can change everything. I am reminded of the song from the musical Annie titled Tomorrow. “The sun will come out tomorrow, bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow, there’ll be sun. Just thinking about tomorrow clears away the cobwebs and the sorrow, till there’s none.” What beautiful lyrics to remind us that everything changes and this too shall pass. Our guides, helpers, angels in heaven and here on earth are here with us. They are working behind the scenes for us. We don’t know how, but even in these difficult times, we know they are there. We are not alone. We have the hope that tomorrow the light will shine again. There will be joy and happiness again. We just have to hang on till tomorrow.